My BIG day is coming up in less then 2 weeks. And by BIG day I mean, graduation. The day you step across the stage into an invisible wall that crosses you over to adult hood.

Tonight as I was writing out invitations, I noticed my mom wanted me to invite my stepdads mother.
I instantly thought “If Patty comes, she’s going to bring Jim, her fiancé.”

Jim, grandpa Jim was my favorite person ever when I was a child. I was so innocent, so oblivious. He touched me in ways that’s I still cringe at the thought of.
One day when I had a bunch of family at my house I started crying and told my mom that I don’t wanna see grandpa Jim anymore, and she was shocked to hear such a thing coming from a little girl who loved her grandpa.
I told her what he did, the things he would say to me, and shows her where he would touch me.
They didn’t believe me, no one did.

Ever since then, when I see him I instantly get sick to my stomach and I feel like I’m being suffocated.

I don’t want to see the root of all my problems in the crowd on one of the biggest days of my life.
All the things I hate about myself, are because of him. I don’t want to “face my fear” on a day that already scares the living shit out of me.

So I ask again, what’s a girl to do?